Speechless

I sit in this place of not knowing how to receive God's favor. I stand in a place of receiving God's very promises but I do not know how to thank him for them. He provided to me the very thing that I wanted for the last 15 years. You gave me my Beloved. You did. You promised me many years ago that you would bring he and I together and it took many many years but you did it. you heard my hearts cry every night for years and you answered my petition. Abba Father, I do not know how to thank you for such an amazing gift. Let your name be exaulted in this beautiful union. I know this road will be long and with be filled with many uneasy times but I know that you will be with us. You have walked so faithfully with us both in the last 15 years. My faithful Savior you have been. Remind me to turn my eyes to you when times are tough and when I cannot see the path in front of us. Guide us both in this journey to keep your name Holy. You did not die for either one of us to walk this journey alone. light our path, keep our gazed fixed on you. Make my heart soft towards him and show me how to love him well. Show me what he needs from me to affirm him as a man, my husband, and a father. I want to put all of who I am in this journey and give it my heart. I have waited and stood in the gap for him for years and I am not about to give up now because I have him. I want this to be a marriage that turns the hearts of those that do not believe that there is a God who loves them and wants good things for them. I want others to see our love story but most of all I want them to see the ultimate love story between the Bride-groom and His Bride.

I look at my husband and I think to myself, I married Scott. I married Scott. I almost can't believe it myself. I married Scott. After all these years, I married Scott. Abba, help your daughter love him well. Sow into me the gifts of your love and show me how to love your son well. Tell me what he needs when he can't. Tell me how he's hurting and how I can comfort him when he needs me. Give me the right words to say to encourage him and make him feel respected and loved. Help me open my heart to him and allow him to love me fully.