3 days to go!

So today I woke up much earlier than I would have liked. I don't have a job and I should be sleeping in, not waking up at 6:30 with a list running a mile long of things left undone. It's just not right I tell you. NOT RIGHT!

Even though my head is full of things to do and take care of, I'm feeling pretty good. Had a few moments of "What am I doing?!" But there are no twinges of "this is the wrong thing to do". Which I think is a good thing considering I am 3 days away from moving half way around the world! I'm so completely jazzed! I got out of my small town and I'm doing something that I NEVER imagined I would ever do. I didn't know what I wanted to do with myself but I knew that I didn't want to stay in a small town. Maybe one day I'll have have the desire to stay put and make my life in one place, but for right now, I have been ruined for "life as usual". I've seen too much, I've been given too much to stand still and ignore the small voice in my heart that says,"Go and see. Touch and feel. Be among the one's who don't know love like you know love" When you have as much as I do, there's no way you can stand still and not share it with others. I'm not talking money, any one can write a check and call it a day and a good deed. I'm talking about giving of something so much more valuable, a piece of your heart. There's no way you can go into a place with such injustice and leave without it touching every part of you. It's on your skin, in your hair, in your nose, in your eyes. It is on you like a second skin. Unless your heart is completely detached, you cannot walk away untouched. It's not the way we were designed to be. We were created to give so much of ourselves that we are forced to run to the arms of our beautiful Creator to fill us up again. What if we did that?! What if we didn't live our lives as though we are living only for ourselves? What if we gave so to someone else just because we could? What I'm doing in India shouldn't be looked at as this amazing, selfless act. It should be the norm and expected. We have got to learn to get out of ourselves and give something of who we are to people who need the encouragement. Learn something about yourself. See the world through someone else's eyes. Learn to love the way we are loved;selflessly.