Yesterday was my last day of work. It was a tough day because I enjoy the people there so much. Like all co-worker relationships there are days that you just want to smack them all and shake them a bit, but that's normal, right? It was sweet. We had lots of cake and yummy food and not too many tears. Good day! All day I was hearing really fantastic encouragements about what I'm doing and how noble it is and all thst kind of stuff. And I say thank you and smile and nod but in my head I was thinking, this isn't noble. This is what I was made for! This is what I was designed for! Not going to India is a bigger sacrifice to me than giving up anything here. I know it's hard for people to wrap their minds around it sometimes so I just let it go.
So after I got over the fact that I no longer have a job (totally weird!) I was driving to a friends house and it's like God pulled the cork on my understanding of the season I'm in. My going to India isn't just this thing that I'm doing because I got bored one day. This was placed in my life. This wasn't a desire I ever had until 4 years ago when I saw the beautiful faces of these people. So as I'm driving I'm crying and saying out loud (we all do it!) "This finally makes sense! I'm finally able to do what I've been designed to do and it all fits!" I don't know how else to say that. This is my thing. This is what I'm made for. This is my heart and I get to go and take it. I don't know how many people actually get the chance to live a dream. I am living my dream, or at least I will be in 8 days!
I can now answer that question of "Are you excited?" without any hesitation or reserve. I am sad to leave my loved ones for this season, but I am bustin at the seams with joy and thankfulness because I am able to live my dream.
I am so blessed.
I'm the lucky one, not India.
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